Back On Track

Well it’s been a couple of days back on track in full force and I feel pretty darn good. When I am watching my food intake carefully I always go to bed at night feeling very accomplished and satisfied. 

I haven’t been to the gym in about three weeks (oops!) but I went back yesterday and today and I feel very sore and out of shape but good. The thing is, I love going to the gym. I love being a “gym person” and seeing the same people day in and day out…however, I have a major motivational problem. It’s called laziness. Ha. I wish I wasn’t so lazy or full of excuses but I am and that is just something I need to work to change over the next year.

Happy new year! I know 2016 is going to be the best year yet!

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Moving Forward

I have been our of commission for a few days. We went to Buffalo for a few days to celebrate the life of my sweet Auntie Ruth who was called home in her sleep last weekend. She was 100.5 years old and feisty lady!  

She loved her family and her friends, and the strangers she delivered Meals on Wheels to for 50 years. She will be dearly missed.

So I am back on the diet train in full force this morning. I am headed to the gym momentarily (man, I have not worked out in a long time!) and will be headed to the grocery shortly after that.

I am craving some order in my life. I have a little over a week before I head back to the UC Weightloss center and I would like to be down a few pounds before I go there.

I must say, I think this is the first Christmas Holiday in years that I have not gained a significant amount of weight. While I was perfect, I did make better choices then I would have if I had not been conciliatory about the food I was putting in my mouth.

Just Do It

Just Do It!

God bless the marketing department at Nike. When they came up with hat slogan I am sure it was supposed to be for one season, but here we are some twenty years it is an American icon and those three little words mean so much.

To me, just do it means stop complaining and get it over with. Stop talking about it ad nauseum and get going. Stop complaint about your current situation and change it.

That is what I am really trying to do in this first month of my extreme weight loss plan. I just need to do it. There is no sense in complaining or talking about it or whining. I just need to do it.

Writing these thoughts down helps keep things in perspective. It feels more real when I put it all out there.

Tonight we are meeting friends at the zoo lights. My kids have no idea which makes it even more fun. Hopefully I don’t need to focus on food and just enjoy the memories I am making with the kids.

Groundhog Day

Do you remember that movie, Groundhog Day? Bill Murray’s character wakes up every morning to the same thing happening again and again?Man, I love that movie.

But, sometimes I feel like my life is a play on that movie and I don’t like it at all. This very restrictive diet is just that, very restrictive. I have a choice of about four items for each meal and snack and that is about it. I don’t love it or hate it. It is what it is.

Today I went off track for lunch because frankly I am so tired of salad. I have never been a real lettuce person to begin with, so the thought of eating another salad made my stomach turn. So I decided to split a kids meals with Ryan. Chicken fingers and fries. Now, the old Liz would have had a basket to herself, but the improving Liz split a kids meal that had approximately three chicken tenders and fifteen fries total in it. So I had a tender (yes, one) and a few fries and then I ate the celery and carrots that came with the husband’s meal.

And I left feeling guilty. 

Like I had made a bad choice.

And I felt ashamed.

Then I snapped myself out of it and realized this is real life and not a movie. I will have to make choices for the rest of my life and I need to make good ones but I also can make some bad ones in moderation and still be okay.

The end.

It’s Tough

well this is attractive…

The picture above is from two weeks ago when I had my metabolism evaluated. In good news, I have a very high resting metabolism. In kind of annying news, I eat too much for that to matter.

This week has been tough, like really really really tough. As a teacher, the week before break is brutal when it comes to food…cookies, luncheons, dips, crackers, candy, oh my!!! 
I guess this whole time of year is hard for everyone. I am glad I started this journey before Christmas because I have really been put in check. While I may be making some mistakes here and there, it is nothing compared to what it would have been.

I am looking forward to a lot of cuddles with these three over Christmas break.

  
 

I Lost 30 Pounds!!!!

Ha!

My scale said that I lost 36 pounds this past week.

Unbelievable. Truly.

Of course, I really did not lose 36 pounds; obviously my scale is not calibrated correctly.  I guess I should put a new scale on my list for Santa.  I really have been a good girl this year.

I keep going back and forth about weighing myself weekly or just waiting for my monthly visits with the doctor.  I go back on January 6 so it might be nice to go in there with total surprise at my results.  But it also might be good to keep track of my own progress.

#weightlossstrugglesnotstruggles

In other news, this week has been a little bit of a struggle.  There are just so many goodies and parties and festive things happening and it IS hard to resist temptations.  I am trying my best and thinking long term but, man, it is tough. I am hoping once this week is over I can get some workouts in over the break.  I am just so bogged down with “things” and commitments in the evening that it is hard to do anything but survive.

Minute by minute.  Day by day.