Oh my goodness, the sickness continues…ear infection, strep and Influenza A; what a combo! I am starting to feel on the mend. In fact, I was up and ready to go to the gym this morning at 4:45 but then reality hit and I started uncontrollably coughing and sneezing and a decision was made to take another day. Ugh…I am ready to be done with this.
Megan and Tyler also woke up sick this morning, but I am thinking they just have a common cold. They are both staying home from school today with low-grade fevers. Thank goodness for my mother in law who is a saint and takes sick kids into her home.
I feel like my life has been in a hold position for the last week. I am ready to get back to exercise and the gym. I sort of crave the feeling I have when I have accomplished something before 6:30 am that some people will never accomplish in the day! I crave the way my body feels after a good workout. Weird.
The good thing is, my eating is definitely back on track. I am focusing on following the prescribed diet to a “T” until my next weigh-in on March 15. I actually kind of enjoy the “Game” of staying on track in my calories. It is like a puzzle trying to figure out what I can and cannot have to stay in my calories. I also love the feeling of food not controlling me as it has in the past. For a moment yesterday I didn’t feel hungry or the need to eat or the pressure to binge. It was a glorious feeling. A big deal for me.
What is frustrating about losing weight when you need to lose a lot of it is that you don’t always notice a real difference in how things fit or how you look for a long, long time. In fact, I can remember the last time I was truly serious about weight loss it was 40 pounds before I could even tell a difference…then from 40-60 pounds the biggest changes occurred. So, I am holding on to that and keeping my head up even though it is hard sometimes. I have also had three children in between this time, so my body has definitely shifted and changed in the process. I have to keep reminding myself of this.
I guess that’s all for today. Hopefully I will be back tomorrow and able to talk about a workout!