In outward appearances I look as though my life is completely put together.
In reality I am on the verge of a breakdown.
My anxiety has hit an all-time high this month and it is really affected everything I am trying to accomplish.
At this point I am sort of at a loss as to where to go with this. I have been loosely tracking the triggers and it comes down to so many things that I can’t pinpoint just one.
I would say the biggest issue is my husband’s schedule change has cause me to be unable to make my morning exercise classes.
And it sucks.
I can’t seem to get to the gym consistently in the afternoons. Something always comes up and makes it next to impossible to get there. And I am not disciplined enough to do an at-home workout in the morning. I wish I was, but I am not.
I must go back to taking things day by day, minute by minute to get myself back on track.
With surgery pending, now, more than ever, I have to stick to sticking to it.
…and maybe I need to start drinking heavily 😳