June , 2016
I can look at that second picture (taken this morning) and pick out many things I don’t like. If some people were to look at it and not know my journey they may say things like, that girl needs to go on a diet” or “she could stand to lose some weight,”
But, today, I am going to see progress. I am going to notice toned arms, a flatter stomach, and no double/chin.
I definitely have a ways to go before I am happy (will I ever be?). But, today, I will see all of the positive changes that I have made in the last 4 months.
And I will be proud of the progress.
I am not sure if I could have asked for a better weekend. It was the perfect mix of busy and relaxing if you know what I mean.
I can feel fall upon us and I really couldn’t be happier. Fall is my favorite season by far. And while I love my shorts and flip flops and days by the pool, I love even more my jeans, sweatshirts, and Saturday football.
We have a busy few months coming up, so it was nice to spend some time home this weekend.
I went shopping on Sunday and guess who bought a pair of size 16 jeans?
It feels so good to be able to buy clothes on the regular section of the store. I haven’t done that in about 13 years.
I also spent time doing food prep which I believe is the #1 way for me to stay on top of my calories/protein/life during the week. If I do not prep, I am totally lost!
And we actually took a cute family picture on Saturday. I am only a month late getting it to Tyler’s teacher. #winning
Have a great week. Let’s do this!!!
My daughter weighs 75 pounds.
And this week when I stepped on the scale I realized I am down 75 pounds.
75 pounds feels HEAVY!
I haven’t weighed in a few weeks because I have been feeling bloated and I have been on my period and that causes me to retain all kind of water. But this morning I just knew it was going to be a good day for me. I stepped on the scale and felt confident that it was going to be a great day. The best I could ask for.
Bathroom pic, feeling “normal”
When I get ready for work in the morning, I feel more and more like a normal person. I have shied away from wearing heels for years because I always felt like a giant in them, and last year I wore the same two pairs of black pants almost every day…but now I am feeing more and more comfortable wearing things that are cute.
I still have a ways to go…but I am celebrating how far I have come as well.
Last night we spent hours in the heat at a local park and I keep thinking how awesome it is that I can play with my kids without getting winded.
And I participated in a color run with my students on Friday afternoon. I actually RAN and did not just stand/sit there and watch. I felt so accomplished.
I keep feeing like with each pound lost I have actually found a new me. And it feels wonderful. Instead of dreading things I am actually looking forward to life for the first time in about 10 years.
Life is good…no, life is great!
I am looking forward to the next chapter.
Our weekend was packed with so much fun. It started in full-force On Thursday afternoon and at 8 o’clock last night I realized I had not sat down for pretty much three days.
I am exhausted but so so happy!
Here are some pictures of all the cuteness:
Tyler on the Homecoming float!
Megan throwing her favorite thing…candy!
New bunk beds for the Birthday Girl!
Skating Party! (rinks haven’t changed since the ’80s)
Ryan is ready for Halloween (Ty’s uniform)
Because it was funny!
It’s weekends like this that I am so thankful I am able to be up and moving with my kids. They are really my everything and I want to make memories so specia with them.
Have a great week!
My oldest baby turned seven today. The best day of my life. The day I became a mother and my world was changed for the better instantly.
Just look at my face…how insanely happy I am at that moment. Her birth was perfect, very painful, but perfect.
I love her even more now. With each passing year it is not lost on me how grateful I am to be her mom. She was a gift from God in a very horrific time in my life.
I love her so much it sometimes hurts.
Throwback to birthday #5
Megan’s birthday got me thinking about being seven. I remember being seven because it was the first year I was put on a diet.
I remember my seven year check-up and the doctor telling my mom she needed to “watch me” because he didn’t want me to get too fat.
Who says that in front of a seven year old? And I wasn’t even fat at the time. Thus started my identity as the fat girl for my whole life. Still, to this day I cannot enter a room without feeling like the fattest person in it.
Can you believe that? So, I have been in a perpetual state of losing and gaining weight for the last 37 years.
Is that not crazy?
Well, this cycle has stopped with me…
I have vowed never to do this to Megan. My body image was messed up my whole life and I refuse to pass that down to her. I am going to live a healthy life to be a model for healthy living for her (really all of my kids). I don’t want her to spend a minute feeing bad about the way she looks. I love her for who she is and I will give her the tools to live a healthy life.
Happy birthday, my sweet Megan Elizabeth. You make the world a better place!
I can’t believe another week has gone by. The week seems so slow when I am in the thick of it, but it seems to be over in a blink. We have a lot going on extra-curricula this week, so hopefully we will be able to get it all done.
First grade homework is killing me already! The perfectionist in me wants her to do it and do it right. The parent in me wants her to take responsibility of her own work. It is a struggle.
It is also birthday week. I can’t believe my sweet girl is going to be seven. Where has the time gone? I can totally remember when I found out I was pregnant with her. It was the happiest, most freaked-out day of my life!!!!
She is a keeper, that is for sure!
I did a ton of breakfast and lunch meal planning today. It is so nice to cook once and eat for a week. I love the grill…so healthy and fresh! I will be eating like a queen this week; salmon, squash zoodles, cauliflower mash, corn I the Cobb, healthy quiche, and sweet potatoes. Yummers!!!
Have a great week everyone! I will be back sometime with a weight loss check in.