On the Dumps

Guys, I have been in a three month stall. Since November 24 I have been losing and gaining the same 2-3 pounds. It has been miserable. While I know plateaus are part of the process, mentally that fact does not make this any easier. I have been working out HARD. My eating has been on point since the new year. I did give myself some grace over he holidays but I didn’t indulge nearly as much as I could have. I only weigh in monthly, but I have been stepping on the scale more often hoping something would change and those pounds would be gone forever.

I don’t really have a goal weight. I figure when I am close to where I want to be I would figure it out then. With how I look and feel now, I figure I have a good 25+ pounds still to go.  The weight I am currently sitting at is what I weight about 14 years ago. I was head first into Weight Watchers at that time and had lost a good chunk of weight then. About this time was when I met my husband and we were on the fast track of dating, marriage, fun, and kids. This is also when the weight slowing began to creep on. Subsequently, I was sitting higher then my heightest WW weight when instarted this journey last January.

So here’s the fact, Jack…I am scared. Scared that I will never get past their weight. Scared that I will not successfully lose all I need to lose. Scared of gaining.

It’s a bad spot to be in.

Feeling kinda small


But I have resolved to keep doing what I am doing and working as hard as I can to get through this. 

I will get through this.

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A Slightly Opinionated Post

I don’t consider myself a very political person. I don’t really involve myself in political discussions, nor do I engage with people who want to debate politics. It’s just not my thing.

But this political climate has gotten me thinking, actually almost enraged.  For a moment yesterday I thought I might have to log off of Facebook for a while. I just don’t understand all of the tension. Maybe I am naive, but I do get it. I get that the candidate some people wanted didn’t win. I can appreciate the dedication people have. I can even see feeling skeptical and even a bit uneasy about the next four years.

What I can’t wrap my head around is the nastiness that has been brought out by so many people who claim to want equality for everyone. The low blows that have been put in writing about a child who did not run for office nor asked for the spotlight. The pure hatred for a person that in a sense has made no bones about his views and was ELECTED by voters just as every other president has been elected forty four times before him.

I don’t think you deserve a trophy because you showed up, I believe working hard and dedicating yourself to something may be the road to victory, but I am realistic to say that even if you put everything into something you don’t always come out on top. And that has to be okay. 

In life, there are winners and for every winner there are 10 times the amount of losers. With anything you do in life you have to do it because you are passionate about it, because you enjoy it, and because you want to get something out of it. Not everyone gets the starting position, not everyone gets the accolades, not everyone gets the prize. And a lot of times an arrogant, selfish, nasty person (who you think doesn’t deserve to win) wins.

But everyone has the opportunity to grow, to learn, and to become better just by participating. It’s how you take the loss and move forward from it that really defines what victory really is. It’s the time spent in self-reflection and planning a new goal that makes you better for the next time.

Whether I was happy or sad about the new president, I am going to live my life just as I always have. I am going to hold my loved ones tight, I am going to teach my children love and tolerance and acceptance. I will learn from my mistakes and move forward in search of new opportunities to make a world a better, brighter place. And I don’t need to march with a million strangers to do that.

Tyler got second…again…not THE winner, but my winner!

99 Problems

I got 99 Problems but you won’t be one…

I have that song stuck In my head.

I am having connection problems with my phone and WordPress which is making it difficult for me to blog. I have written about three posts that have not been able to be published, and it is annoying. But I am going to try this one more time.

Life is busy and good and continues to move at lightning speed. I enjoyed spending time with my family over the weekend. 

My hubby was inducted into his HS Athletic Hall of Fame so that was in red only special. I was so proud of him and he felt great receiving the award.


Tyler won second place (again) in his wrestling tournament.


And we went for a family swim on Monday.  I need a new bathing suit…desperately.


All good stuff. 

Stuff

Why is it that sometimes I can eat something every day for a month and it is great and then one day out of nowhere the same thing I loved the day before makes me feel ill to even think about it?

For months I have been eating egg whites mixed with spicy mustard and veggies (I know, I know, eggs and mustard sounds so gross, but don’t knock it until you try it) every single morning with a side of turkey bacon.  It is a high-protein, low-carb delight!  Today I made the same breakfast, took one bite, and literally felt like I was going to vomit.  I had to throw it out immediately. This is so weird to me.  The same thing happened with protein shakes…I drank a Premier Protein Shake every morning for months.  Then, one morning, I drank one and immediately got sick.  I have not been able to stomach one since.  So annoying.  Now I am going to have to find a new quick high-protein breakfast that I enjoy.

This has been a weird morning.  I was driving to the gym minding my own business and then I almost lost control of my car and almost started spinning out of control.  It was insane.  I was going pretty slowly (as I always do in the morning), but not slow enough, obviously. When I finally got to the gym I opened the car door and immediately fell down on the ground.  It doesn’t really even look like there is black ice outside but apparently my eyes are playing tricks on me.

I should have just turned around and went home.  But I didn’t.  I got my workout in and it was a tough one.  Wednesday Bootcamp is always the hardest workout of the week. I am really starting to track my fitness this year.  I have added High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT) to my regular treadmill workouts.  It amazing me that now my “slow” walk to catch my breath is a 4.1.  A year ago I literally could only walk at a 4.0 for like a minute and then I needed a break.  I have also started running.  I am not a runner and I am pretty slow by running standards, but I would like to someday do a 5k. Otherwise I have no interest in training for anything.

Shawn is off work for another two weeks and I have been thinking and planning what I am going to do with my workouts once he is back to work.  When he is not working (every 2 days) I can just stay with my regular morning workouts, when he is working I need to do something else because he leaves the house at 4:30 am. The easiest would be to just head to the gym right after school with the kiddos in tow and get a sweat on then.  But that always seems to be easier planned than done; I hate packing for the gym, changing, dropping the kiddos off at the childcare (Ryan was lost the other day but that is a story for a different day), I am tired after work, yadda, yadda, yadda.
There are two new classes that I would like to try (Insanity and Drum) but the class times are from 7-7:45 and I am not sure I would have the motivation to go in the evening.  I would like to try them, though, and it would work with Shawn’s work schedule so I might just bite the bullet and do it.  At home workouts never seem to motivate me, but that is always an option.  I would love a treadmill, but we are all about saving this year so I would not be able to justify that purchase. I still have some time to work it out, but I am thinking thinking thinking so it doesn’t catch up with me and I have no plan. have been really slacking in the picture department.

This is the second post in a row where I have no pictures.  I will try to get better with that. Geesh.

Have a great Wednesday!!!

Making Plans

This weekend was crazy busy but we also had a lot of time to chill as well.

On Friday night Shawn went to play cards and Tyler went with him.  Megan and Ryan and I headed to McDonald’s to run off some cold-weather cabin fever. That play place is like an instant upper for my kids.  They absolutely love it and I love having a few moments to myself.  We picked Tyler up from the card game and hung out for a few minutes and were home by about 8:30…Ryan got immediately hosed down and then to bed.  The three of us watch Matilda which was such a cute movie.  All three of us really loved it and I would highly recommend it for kids ages 5-8.

Saturday morning started off with wrestling practice for Tyler and a trip to the gym for me and Megan and Ryan.  I had an intense 50 minutes of Muscle Max and was just getting started on my 20 minute walk/run to finish when I saw a little body running around the gym that looked familiar.  It turns out that Ryan escaped the nursery and was having his own kind of work-out.  I almost couldn’t believe my eyes.  The people in the nursery had no idea this had happened and were surprised when I brought him back.  They apologized a million times over, but I felt like he had had enough for the day so we got Megan and left.

Afterwards, Megan’s BFF, Addy, came over and we headed to the big gym and played volleyball, basketball, racquetball, and some gymnastics.  It was a pretty great afternoon.  The rest of the night went by in a blur…church, Megan went to a sleepover, watching football and early bed for the rest of us.

Sunday started out bright and early with another round of church (I was speaking at both masses about our school, so that is  why I went twice). Then I had to bust it across town to watch Tyler wrestle.  For having been off for about three weeks, he did amazing. I am so proud of how hard that kid has worked during this season.  I am actually amazed every time I watch him.  When it was over we took Tyler out to lunch at Zoup (so good!) and he enjoyed the one on one time with us.  The I went grocery shopping, we picked Ryan up from his grandma’s and Shawn picked Megan up from Addy’s.

We enjoyed a family dinner (delicious roast beef and mashed potatoes, and sweet peas), took showers, and everyone was in bed by 7:15, including the adults. #weparty

It was a packed weekend but a good one.

I have been thinking a lot about this new year and things that I want to change this year over last. There are a lot of wonderful things that happened to me in 2016.  I took control of my eating and exercise which made a world of difference in many aspects of my life.  However, there are some things I put on the back-burner while I was settling into my new lifestyle.

First of all, our finances are not good.  Without getting into too much detail, it has been a rough year.  I am bound and determined to get out finances in order this year.  I have been talking with a financial planner and using the Dave Ramsey program to figure out what we need to do to get our family out from under. Shawn and I both make a good living and we should be much farther ahead then where we are.  The one thing we have going for us is that we both have great retirement savings and plans and we contribute well to that.  But, the day to day this year has pretty much sucked.

I plan to pay off two credit cards that have somewhat low balances but have had balances for the last two years.  I want to be credit card dept free by next January.  This is doable and achievable and I have a plan to start paying weekly on both until one is paid off and then paying the other with the amount I was paying both (this is a Dave Ramsey strategy) until that is paid off.  I actually think these could be paid off realistically by June if I really put the work in.  After that, all the money I was paying each week on credit card debt will go directly into savings.  I have a number in my head that I would like to have saved by the end of the year.  It is not a ton of money, but enough that if we have something break or something go wrong in the house we will not be strapped to get it fixed. I feel like we have spent the past year “robbing Peter to pay Paul” and I am sick to death of living like that.  I want financial freedom.

I definitely believe that if we get our finances in order then everything else in our lives will fall into place and be a little less “heavy” on us.  Shawn is game with my plan so I have his buy-in which will make things easier for me.  With that, I have made a plan to also not spend any money on clothes or shoes or anything unnecessary  for myself or the kids until after March 1.  Not that I spend that much money on material things, but every bit counts and if I am not putting anything on the credit cards the debt will go away sooner.

Finally, I am going to try and keep our grocery budget under control.  This means that I will not be making additional trips to the grocery store during the week (unless we are out of milk or diapers…that cannot happen).  I am going to meal plan and keep to the list and make it a goal to spend an average amount (that I have an exact number for) each week.  If I didn’t buy it during my weekly haul we will have to do without it until the next week. Period.

I actually feel really good getting this out of my head and on paper.  I like to have goals that are achievable and like I said before, if our finances are in order I feel like everything else in our lives will be better.  Last year was a difficult year for our marriage as well and it really does have a lot to do with not feeling secure in our finances.

I will periodically check in with some updates, if I think about it.  But, I am  hoping moving into 2018 will look much different for us.

Do you have any achievable goals or plans for 2017?

Happy New Year

New Years Eve at our house was very low key. The hubby was not feeing well and, let’s be honest, I prefer being in bed before 9pm on any given day. Why should NYE be any different?

So we had a little neighborhood friend sleep over and I beieve the kids made it way longer then I did. Ryan was in bed and asleep at his normal 7:30.

But New Years Day was a different story. I decided this year I wanted to start a tradition with my family. Sometimes we go to Buffalo over Christmas but most years we are just here. So about a week ago I started thinking about doing something really fun and memorable with the kids…something we could do Year after year and it would be a tradition that we could look forward to…and it could be something the young and old could take part in.

I decided we would start the day with church at the downtown cathedral, St. Peter in Chains. I have never been there but I had heard it is gorgeous. I also researched and saw that our Catholic Bishop would be presiding over a special Massfor World Peace” and there would be a small reception afterwards.

Perfect.

Arch-Bishop Schnurr at the recessional.

At the altar after mass

The picture does this no justice…one of the prettiest nativity scenes ever.

The kids were so good and the highlight for them was the cheese, crackers, and cookies afterwards (obvi). But I loved the whole experience of it. It felt special and as I prayed over our new year I knew I was starting the year in the exact place I was supposed to.

Then we headed over for ice skating in the square downtown. Another activity I have never done but was looking forward to sharing it with the kiddos.

A total natural!

He was tentative at first but ended up doing awesome.

Ryan was a champ and mommy did well holding his hand and skating at the same time.

Trying to get a pic of all three looking at the camera was the hardest part of the day.

Ha…Ryan’s face


It was honestly one of the best days I have ever had. And I know the older the kids get the more fun they will have with this awesome tradition. 

There was incident or injury until we were walking back to the car and Tyler ran into a parked car face first. Don’t even ask me how this happened…I have no idea. All I know is he will be heading back to school with a big old shiner. 

It looks as bad as it felt.


Today I had a solid work-out and am getting my ducks in a row for school to start tomorrow. I am kind of looking forward to getting back to a schedule but also sad we will be losing my favorite part of any break…the slow morning.

Have a great day!

Pictures Don’t Lie

This picture showed up in my Facebook memories his morning. This was last year. Ugh…


Sometimes a picture says 1,000 words. I am so glad Shawn and I have both made the decision to get ourselves healthy.  

The transformation I see in pictures is absolutely unreal to me. From a size 24/3XL to a 16/XL-L and still going down.


Instead of resolutions for 2017 I am aiming for several goals that I would like to accomplish. I prefer to keep them to myself written in my personal journal and may share them as the are accomplished, but I will tell you that a lot of them have to do with getting out and doing active things with the kids.

I am looking forward to 2017 and hope that this is the year I can love myself more than I ever have which will allow me to love others with unselfish abandoned.

Happy New Year!