95

After a very lllllloooooonnnnnngggg plateau, I can finally say that the scale is moving in the right direction. I did have a good loss in January (4 pounds) but I thought that might just be a fluke so I wanted to wait a month to see if I really was, indeed losing. I only weigh myself on the 24th of each month. 

Why the 24th? 

Because I had my surgery on the 24th of June and I like to be consistent like that.

Why only once a month? 

Because I become obsessed with the number and my mood is based on what that number is. For a while I was weighing daily and it messed with my mind in a major way. To each their own, you have to do what works for you!

I am happy to report that I am down 95 pounds from beginning my journey 13 months ago. 

This is my official “before” picture. It is NYE 2015…approximately one year before I did anything about my weight. It took me almost 350 days after this picture was taken to realize I needed to make a change in my life. Denial, much?

No, I am not pregnant…but that is a maternity shirt


I am still about 25-30 pounds away from goal. I am approximately 14 pounds away from where I would like to be this summer.  But at this point, I am so very happy with my progress and I feel really good in my own skin for the first time in about 12 years. Shopping in “normal” stores was a huge goal for me. I have longed for the day where I can go into a store and be able to buy something off the rack. 

In this current picture, my entire outfit is from the Gap. I have not been able to fit in Gap clothes since 2002. And those pants and shirt…they are not even the biggest size the Gap makes. #Nonscalevictory


When I look at this picture I try very hard not to be nit-picky about the way I look. Sure, I have some sagging skin and my hair could look better and I wish my hips were smaller, my belly is still not flat, and I have a few gray hairs and wrinkles.

But, you know what? 

I LITERALLY have worked my ass off for that body. I have push my limits in the gym. I have watched my diet and said no to more things than I can count. I have made a complete change in my life and I have brought my family with me. 

So I am going to celebrate this 95 pounds and I am going to be happy with my accomplishments today. And tomorrow, I am going to hit the gym, meal plan, and set myself up for success.

Prepping Like a Boss

I am setting myself up for success this week. Part of that set-up is prepping all the good foods so that I don’t even have to think about what to pack. 

This morning I…

Cut a pineapple (making beef and pork on a stick for dinner tonight and leftovers for the week).


Cut celery and put them in portioned packets with peppers and carrots. Also portioned hummus to take with for a great mid-morning or mid-afternoon snack.


Made a low-fat and high protein cake for dessert tonight. Just a cake mix with crushed pineapple and juice with a few scoops of Hemp protein powder. It baked perfectly and I am going to top it with cool whip mixed with crushed pineapple and an additional couple of scoops of protein powder. Yum-O!


For the skewers I am going to put lean meats, peppers, onions, pineapple, and zucchini. The steak is currently marinating in balsamic vinegarette and the pork is pre-marinated in Asian spices. I will serve them with a side of jazmine rice mixed with riced cauliflower and roasted Brussels sprouts and mushrooms. There will be plenty for leftover lunches throughout the week. Perfect!


And the finished product…


For full transparency, I eat off of a small plate. Although this looks like a ton of food, it really is about 3 ounces of meat, 1/2 cup of veggies and a 1/4 cup of rice.

The hubby is on a new shift this week so my beloved morning work-outs are over for a while. I am going to try and schedule daily afternoon workouts which has always been an issue for me but I have to make it work.

Wish me luck!

What are you doing to set yourself up for success this week?

Motivation

Yesterday we had the day off because of all the sickness in our school. It was like a gift from Heaven.


It was such a beautiful day! Megan and Tyler sported shorts. We grabbed our neighbors and headed on an adventure which included two parks, a hike by the river, and ice cream. Always ice cream.


I carried Ryan and Tyler (not at the same time!) for pretty much the whole hike. It got me thinking about my weight (of course). Ryan weighs 41 pounds and Tyler weighs 55 pounds. I was worn out carrying them. I could do it, but, man, I was tuckered. 

In reality, I carried the weight of both of them around for about the last ten years. No wonder I was so tired and lethargic all the time! It really takes a reality like this to get me motivated for the rest of my weight loss journey. I want to lose about 20-25 more pounds (maybe more). To do this I need to get motivated and stick to the plan and not fall into old habits.

I can do this. I know I can. I just have to, well, do it. Focus on making the right choices right now. I want the weight off before summer and I know I can do it. 

Today after the gym I did a very healthy grocery haul…lots of lean protein, veggies, and fruit. Our whole family can benefit from less crap being in the house. 

Lunch was a delicious and healthy tuna salad that was delicious! And some nut thin crackers that are super tasty.


I have to do this. I want to do this. I am MOTIVATED to do this!

A Weekend in Sick

I am presently sitting in my chair in the family room listening to my little boys make a huge mess behind me. To say I am done is sort of the understatement of my life.

My kids have been sick…like, throw up in my bed at 2 am kind of sick. 

I feel like it has gone on forever. 
I have basically spent the entire weekend inside cleaning up various forms of human specimens. 

On top of the stomach flu, Ryan thought a penny would be, and I quote, “delicious, money” on Friday night so I have been sifting through dirty diapers for said penny for three days. 

Being a mom is so glamorous…said no one ever.

Ironically (happily), I feel great. I have tons of energy, have been cleaning the house like a madwoman, and my workouts have been stellar. 

I even made cookies for the kids teachers for tomorrow.


Megan helped me decorate because she is feeling fine too. Thank goodness for Megan.

Oh and my in-laws (childcare) are also down for the count and cannot watch he boys. Hence, day “off” for mommy.

Lord help me.

Let’s Talk Running

I think I have mentioned before that I am really not interested in becoming a runner.  I would like to do one 5k race just to say I did it, but other than that, not really for me.  Well, I must say, for the past couple of weeks I have been working on my running stamina.  Since I have stalled out of weight loss I thought it might help get me out of the plateau if I did some different exercises.  Most runners are not fat, so I thought (logic) that it made sense to try it.

Verdict: I am still convinced I will never be a runner.

BBBBBUUUUTTTTT….

I have kind of started enjoying pushing myself.  Running is definitely one of those exercises that you can see progress quite quickly.   I am not a data geek by any means, but I have noted that I started with a baseline 5K time of 45 minutes (15 minute-ish miles pretty much walking).  About two weeks ago I did another experimental run and saw that my 5K time was 42.30.  Almost 3 minutes faster, that is progress.  Last night I did another 5K and couldn’t believe that my time was 40.25.  FIVE MINUTES people!!!! Five minutes in about a month I have taken off my time.

Now I am kind of craving the competition with myself to be better.  Running I don’t love. Beating my own times…I love.

So we shall see where this takes me.

But I am pretty convinced that I do not like to run.

Tyler is 6

Oh my goodness, how quickly life moves. I feel like just a blink ago we were headed to the hospital after my water broke while having breakfast (FYI, I finish breakfast).

Tyler John turned six yesterday.


It might have been the happiest day of his life. He had so many crazy friends over and it was a party straight from Heaven for him.  They wrestled, played football, and acted like insane lunatics. 


I almost had an anxiety-related panic attack over the shear insaneness of it all. But we made it through and he was so so happy. What a joy he is! I am so over the top in love with this kid.


Everyday is a hilarious adventure with Tyler in it. He is literally the best six year old on the planet. 

And he is mine. Yay for that.

The Girl in the Picture

You know I have been feeling down. My journey has been a special kind of struggle in the last few months.

But today I was reminded of how far I have come in this journey. 

I was given a teaching award this morning at my school. I didn’t know it was happening, but it was a nice surprise.  They brought us up on the altar and gave us a certificate and took a picture. Whenever I get my picture taken I am always worried about how I will look. You know I have a problem with feeling like the biggest person in the room. So I am always tense for pictures.

Well, the picture ended up on our school Facebook feed this afternoon. Imagine my surprise when I looked at it and realized how normal I looked next to everyone. I about cried.

That’s me…third from the left


See the blonde next to me? I always thought that if I ever lost the weight I would like to be her size. She is tall and big boned like me but always carried herself well.

Looking at this picture today made me see that we are pretty much the same size now. Never in a million years did I think I would ever get to this place.  This fact also made me tear up.

I have to remind myself that this a forever journey. There is no real destination. I need to celebrate along the way. 

Tonight I will celebrate with a Hershey’s Kiss. And tomorrow I will be back on the treadmill. 

Life is good.