I struggle with infertility for five years prior to becoming pregnant with Megan. The first three years I just thought it was normal and we weren’t ready for children. Year four was the rough one. Many of my closest friends had their first and were working on #2 while we still waited. It was a lonely time for me. As many people who struggle with getting pregnant know, those pregnancy announcements bring so much joy but also a ton of sadness and , for me, worry that I would never have one of those announcements to share. It was a terrible space to live in.
Then, by God’s grace, I saw those two fateful pink lines on January 1, 2009. And here I am eight years later with three of the most precious gifts I have ever been given.
Mother’s Day always is a touchy one for me. I am so happy to celebrate my own family, but I feel a great heaviness on my heart for those who want so desperately to start their family or grow their family. This pain is not lost on me, even 8 years later.
My kids are my greatest accomplishments and will continue to be for the rest of my life. My cup was overflowing yesterday as they presented me with hand-made gifts and cards and the sweetest picture collage. But the best gifts are the ones that I experience on the daily…their laughter, their hugs, the sweet little voices they have. I am so thankful for Megan, Tyler, and Ryan. I love them so much it sometimes hurts.
Happy Mother’s Day!