Planning for Success

I spent a couple of hours on Sunday prepping and planning my food for the week. I love salads for lunch but hate cutting up the veggies everyday. I LOVE. a lot of toppings. So I decided to prep all the veggies and lettuce so all I had to do was throw it in a bowl in the morning.

I also bought plantain chips and beet chips to try. I have been snacking on nuts and cheese but sometimes I just don’t feel satisfied by those. We will see how this works.

I also made a million Kodiak Cakes for the kids. They love them and they are healthy-ish and I enjoy them too. Breakfast = done.

I also Meal planned dinners for the week so I would be prepared. Yesterday I made meatball subs on yummy bread and they were a hit with everyone in this house.

Tonight is tacos, tomorrow is chicken and rice, and Thursday is Philly steak sandwiches. Friday will be leftovers.

Now that my food is in order the rest of my life is a bit out of control. But I am working on that. Yesterday I put myself in time out and went for a polish change. Fun fact about me…I hate manicures. I only like to get the polish change because I do not like soaking my hands of having my cuticles trimmed. It always causes me to have cracks in my nails.

Then I went to work out and came home a new person.

How is your week shaping up?

Thoughts on VSG 1.75 Years Out

That was me the spring before my VSG surgery 1.75 years ago. I was smiling but miserable. I was desperate and had little hope but I knew this surgery would change my life.

Here’s me in the same shirt. This was last spring but it gives a very realistic view of how my size has changed. I am not smiling in this one, but I am very happy.

I have a good friend who is thinking about having this surgery and I wanted to put into words a few things that have positively changed since having VSG and a few negatives as well (let’s be real here).

Great things that have happened…

  • I am a fit mom. That is what I have always wanted; To be a mom that was fit and healthy and happy. I work out regularly, I eat relatively healthy, and I can keep up and play with my kids for long stretches.

  • I am not the fattest person in the room. I have blogged about this before but I have always scanned rooms to see if I was the fattest person in there. A lot of time I still scan the room and I may think I am the biggest but realistically I am not.

  • I can shop in the “normal” sizes. On any given day I wear a 14/16 pant or dress and a L/XL top. That is down from a 22/24 and 3XL two years ago. Shopping is so much easier now and I love being able to shop in stores like Old Navy, Banana Republic, and Ann Taylor.

  • I am happy but not finished. I would like to lose about 20-25 more pounds. I am happy with my weight loss but there is more to lose. I am happy where I am at but I am not finished losing weight.

The negatives…

  • I am happy but not finished. Almost two years out and I am still not at goal. At first the weight falls off but it gets harder and harder the farther out you are. Your metabolism shifts, you can start to eat more, and you get complacent and a bit lazy with it. If I want to get to goal and need to focus on getting to goal. I have to do it.

  • Some things I just can’t eat. I have not had a “dumping” episode in a long time but sometimes I feel horrible after eating something I have eaten a million times. My stomach is wonky and that is a reality.

  • Everyday is a struggle mentally. I have a fear of gaining. A fear of looking like a failure. It haunts me all the time. Every bite I take. Everyday I skip he gym. It is rough.

That’s it for now. I will be back again for another recap I am sure.

New Smile

Well the hits just keep on coming…literally.

Yesterday afternoon Tyler was begging me to take him to an awesome park that has kids sized basketball hoops. He struggles in school so I thought this would be a great mid-week pick me up. Ha.

So as he was going in for a dunk, he slammed his face into the backboard and lost his two front teeth in the process.

The blood.

Oh the blood.

I shoved those suckers back up into this gums and we headed to the emergency dentist.

The best case senecio happened in that his nerves were not damaged and everything looked “good” from the x-ray.

They splinted his teeth so they will not be able to move for the next six weeks.

And we left a little poorer (damn dentists are expensive!) but happy that no teeth were lost!

I am traumatized but Ty is feeling good and happy to show off his new hard-wear today.

Now, it is time for everything to be normal for the next 10-12 years!

Not Much Better

So, here we are a couple weeks after my last post and I hate to even say this, but we are still in sinking mode.

Ryan is still down and was diagnosed with Flu A yesterday. I have scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed our home, I am feeding my kids vitamins like candy, and we can’t catch a break.


The above picture is two nights ago when Ryan was vomiting so much he just wanted to lay on blankets on the floor. My poor baby.

Poor mommy.

Can I just hope that this is the end of it? Can we please be finished with Flu?

Like, forever?

I am cautiously optimistic.

Until then, may all of you out there be happy and healthy.

Sinking Ship

We have had the flu in our house since February 11.

It started with Ryan, moved to me a few days later, then Megan, then Tyler, then the Husband on Monday the 19th.

It has been as awful as you may think it would be.

So much coughing.

So much vomit.

So much snot.

So much laundry.

We finally seem to be coming out of it, but, man, it has been kind of a nightmare.  I have never been so sick in my life.  I literally spent 72 hours in my bed doing absolutely nothing but watching Sister Wifes and taking naps.

I am still tired.

And we have so much cleaning to do.

It is insane.

Ashes to Ashes

Today is Ash Wednesday (in Catholic speak). It is the day that begins our 40 day journey of Lent ending on Easter Sunday. Lent is one of my favorite times of the year because I do think as a Catholic and person it is important to repent and look to the cross in order to be saved from our transgressions.   There is a great video that I have watched over and over again that really explains Ash Wednesday…

I always give up coffee for Lent.  As a rule. 40 days without coffee is a sacrifice.  But I am not going to do that this year.  I decided to give up/do three things that revolve around Prayer, Fasting and Almsgiving.

Prayer: 10 Hail Mary’s a day for the next 40 days.  That will be 400 Hail Mary’s by the end of Lent.  I have a strong devotion to Mary our Mother so I think that will help me be a better mother and better wife.

Fasting: I will be participating in a “Lenten 40” as I am calling it.  I can give a run-down of the list in another post if anyone is interested. I would do it now, but I left it at home today. Basically, I will be doing 40 reps of 10 different exercises every day during Lent.  My whole family will be participating in this.  We are fasting from laziness, compliance, and being out of control.

Almsgiving: I am going to go through all of the closets and drawers in the house and donate/trash things we do not need or things that are broken.  I started this morning with Megan’s uniforms and will continue throughout the season.  Some people do forty bags, but I am not limiting myself to that.

Hopefully, I will check in with progress throughout the 40 days.  I am hoping by doing these things I will be transformed.

By the way Megan is giving up ice cream and Tyler is giving up McDonald’s. I think this will be good for all of us.


Oh man, this has been a hell of a week.

Shawn went back to work (finally) and with that came a whole lot of new juggling and schedules to get used to.  Namely, I would now be taking Ryan to the sitter (my mother in law) in the morning and Shawn would be picking him up in the afternoon.

Have you ever had a toddler?????

Tasks that seem to be relatively simple turn into the biggest cluster when schedules are thrown off.

Needlesstosay, Ryan’s nap has been disrupted all week which turns into a horrible nights sleep for him (and his mother).  And while we are at it, why not let the other two have sleeping break-downs and regression???????

It a word = HORRIBLE!!!!!

I broke down yesterday afternoon and purchased some melatonin.  Unfortunately, Ryan does not like gummys (Who knew????) so I am going to have to go back for him.  But M & T slept like rocks last night.

I have had a lot on my mind and have not slept well besides having the kids up.  I am hoping this weekend will be a good mix of restful and exciting (Tyler’s Birthday Party.

I cannot believe I will have a seven year old on Monday but that is a post for another day.


have a great weekend!


Whole14: The End

Hello, friends!

I decided to end my Whole30 two weeks pre-mature.  I didn’t go “off the rails” or anything like that.  It was just a personal decision I made over the weekend.

Here are a few factors that weighed in on my decision:

  • Gastric Sleeve: I honestly do not think the Whole30 is such a great plan for people who have a reduced-size stomach.  It was extremely difficult for me to eat the meals (even breaking them down into 5 mini-meals) and ever feel satisfied.
  • Plated Fats: Again, I am not blaming VSG, but I think it has a lot to do with the fact that my body does not tolerate plated fats at all.  I was having very bad bathroom issues (not to go into too much TMI) and was having major abdominal cramps after every meal.
  • Lessons Learned: I learned a lot of great lessons through my Whole30 journey. I KNOW we don’t need to have carbs at every meal to feel satisfied.  We don’t need to have senseless snacks in our house for ourselves or our children.  Over the last two weeks I have completely overhauled our refrigerator and pantry.  I have overloaded the fridge with fruits and vegetables. I have said NO to food for both myself and my children more times that ever.  We have truly changed our lifestyle.
  • It’s too much for me: This may seem like a total cop-out, but Whole30 gave me so much anxiety and I was moving into depression and it was totally not good for my mental health.  Yesterday, as I was having an all-out panic attack in the parking lot of Kroger (tears, shaking, hyperventilating, the works) I had to stop and ask myself, “Is this really worth it?” and the answer is a resounding “NO.”

Honestly, I have learned so much from this experience and from my family taking this journey with me.  So many Whole30 concepts will be ingrained in my life (hopefully forever).  I am proud that I made it this far and I am totally giving props to the Rockstars who make it 30 days and beyond.  My BFF is rocking it and I am super proud of her!  But I am also realistic that this is not something for everyone and it is definitely a different way of resetting your diet in such a positive way.

As for my skin issues, I have to say with 100% truth that my skin has been looking better; not perfect, but much better).  I do think I have a dairy issue and I am confident that I will not be adding a ton of dairy back into my diet anytime soon.  Honestly, I didn’t miss it.  I also did not miss rice (my stomach literally HATES rice) nor did I miss most beans.

My joint pain has been so much better as well, but I am not sure if it is directly from Whole30 or that fact that I have been listening to my body much more and am really trying to listen to my body and take breaks when I need to.

In the end, I am happy I even made it this far.  The first few days were HELL and that just goes to show how crappy I had been eating/drinking.  I have learned so much and I really did make some wonderful changes in the last 14 days.  I am looking forward to moving forward in my journey in a very healthful way!


How is everyone else doing?

Friday Tangents

I am a bit irritated today.

I don’t know if it is the Whole30 that is bringing me down (WHERE IS MY TIGER BLOOD???), or if I am just in a rut with life, or what…but I need to get a few things off of my chest.  Since this is my blog and my words, I am entitled to my own opinion on things…

  1. I am super irritated by people who promote diets (okay, Beachbody mostly) whose before pictures are when they are pregnant.  OF COURSE you are going to have a BIG BELLY and BIG HIPS when you are nine months pregnant.  I mean, I am happy that you have found such great results, but seriously pregnant and post-pardom picture are not good “before” pictures.
  2. My daughters basketball game is cancelled again this week because they have no heat in the gym. Seriously?!?!? how long does it take to fix the heat in a building?  And, if you knew at the beginning of the week that is was cancelled, why did you wait until Thursday to make the call???? Now we are missing Tyler’s wrestling tournament for no good reason.
  3. My three year old is on my last nerve.  I love him to death, he is seriously the cutest kid ever, but he is a HUGE challenge sometimes.  I don’t understand why he is so high-maintenance…or maybe I am old and I just don’t have the patience to manage him.
  4. When you are on Whole30 and have to make baked goods for the wrestling tournament this weekend. enough said.
  5. There are some children that I teach that are so disrespectful and unkind that it physically hurts my heart.  How can you be 14 and already act this way???  Good luck parents in the coming years.  Your turning a blind eye to everything they do is doing them no favors.
  6. Why am I the only person who notices filth in my home?  There are four other people who live with me that constantly strep over clothes, leave cups all over the house, and take items off and throw them on the ground.  Who does this???
    I know!
  7. I haven’t had a working dishwasher since before Christmas.  Those who are on the Whole30 adventure know how many dishes are involved at every meal. #firstworldproblems
  8. My nail polish keeps chipping.  I know it is because of the cold temperatures but still.
  9. I finally caved and decided to get a black coffee this morning.  I was so happy about it until I got to work and realized they gave me a coffee with skim milk and hazelnut swirl.  That went right into the trash.
  10. My wonderful husband finished off the rest of my dinner last night.  The part that I was saving for breakfast this morning.  Nice.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.  I am going to work on adjusting my attitude.