Frustration and Motivation

I have tried to post my monthly “The Good the Bad and the Ugly” three times and each time I hit publish it get lost in the Internet world.  I will try again tomorrow but I am kind of done with the whole thing (so frustrating).

We have been busy.  Megan and Tyler both had games this weekend.  Shawn worked all weekend but he was able to split the game duties because they were at the same time (of course!). The both played their little hearts out and I was so proud of them.  It is amazing how much they have improved since last spring.

This morning I was so tired that all I wanted to do was stay under the covers and get an extra few minutes of rest.  After hitting the snooze button three times I got myself up and made it to the gym for a 45 minute sweat session.  I tried the Elliptical Trainer today and it was super hard and I was very sweaty by the end.  When I looked at the calorie count I was surprised to see that I had burned almost double the calories that I do on the treadmill.  I do not count exercise into my daily calorie goal, but it is nice to see it pop up on the MyFitnessPal app.

I spend so much time thinking about food, calculating food, and making sure I eat the right amount of food that it has somewhat taken over my life.  I know this is a season and I am in the midst of major weight loss so I am fine with it, but, man, it is intense. I bought a different kind of Glucerna Shakes at the store (they were on sale) and they taste DISGUSTING!!!  It has totally thrown me off my game.  On one hand I feel like I need t just suck it up and drink them (they are expensive!) but on the other hand I am not sure if I can stomach them.  I hate when things like this happen because I am so cheap and now I refuse to waste these things.

#DISGUSTING #Abbotletmedown #cantstomachthem

On a better note, I discovered Justin’s Almond Butter in small serving packets and they have somewhat changed my life. I am sure I am behind the game on this as I feel like the rest of the world knows this…but if you have been under a rock (like I have) go out and get some.

The Maple and Vanilla are especially awesome

I think that’s all for the day.  Hope your week is going well.

Has anyone tried a new exercise that you have enjoyed????

Pump it Up

Well, I work up at 4:45 this morning to exercise.

And I didn’t hate it.

I decided after the success of my last class on Saturday that I would try and go to other exercise classes throughout the week.  I do think stepping out of my comfort zone will help enable me to push forward in my weight loss goals.

And since there is no time like the present…

I planned on leaving the house around 4:50 so I could make it to the gym when it opened at 5 am. My plan was to do a treadmill workout for 30 minutes and then take a Body Pump Class from 5:30-6:15.

And I did it.

And I am so proud of myself.

I pushed myself on the treadmill for the full 30 minutes and I was sweating, like, really sweating.  And then I saw people coming in for the class and I started to get really nervous.  I was kind of working my way into an anxiety attack.  Then, I did some positive self-talk, put on my big girl panties, stopped the treadmill and walked right on through those doors.

And you know what?  I was welcomed  many people and a really nice girl actually talked me through the set-up and eased my worry to a point where I was actually looking forward to the work-out. It was SO SO SO hard for me.  I worked muscles that I have never felt before.  But, I actually was enjoying it!  And I felt great afterwards.  And I feel even better now knowing that my work-out is behind me.

 

Yay for me!  Yay for progress!

Out of My Zone

I went to an exercise class this morning. It was a mix of cardio (spinning) and weight lifting and a little bit of spiritual guidance mixed in. This was way out of my comfort zone. I usually just walk on the treadmill or the elliptical and call it a day. But, this class sounded right up my alley and I felt like I needed it.

So I did it…and I am happy I did!

 

very sweaty momma!

When it was finished I felt renewed and like I learned a ton and I had a real sense of pride in myself. And I want to do it again!

Hillary was our personal trainer and it felt like a mini training session because there were only four of us in the class. She as wonderful (I feel like I need to write her a thank you!). The other women in the class definitely had different fitness levels but we focused on our own pace.

And I didn’t feel alone. 

I guess lonely would be one way to define this journey. I know other people are trying to lose weight and I have friends to talk to about my struggles…but BUT it is a very personal struggle and often times it makes me feel loney and depressed and so many other emotions. I have no idea if this makes sense, but in my head it does. 
I am proud of myself. 

I am sore as all Hell!

I feel like I can conquer the rest of the day with my head held high.